Thinking about next move.

[Luna]

I don't want to go, mom.

I snarled, furious with his reply.
" Right, you want to leave me after I cared for you since you were born to stay with the asshole that left us alone, that you haven't seen once until now?" It bothered me to know that he was going to be like Kade, that once he was 2 and mature he'd go off and join Bloodshed anyway. I didn't see how he didn't accept that Kade didn't want him, even when he snarled and told him to leave him. My attention shifted though as the pup that I hadn't really noticed yet moved in.

I watched silently as my nephew took a stand. I couldn't help but raise a brow in questioning at his behavior. What in the hell did he think he was doing? Was he blind? Couldn't he see that if Kade wanted, and he very well might, could swallow him whole? Still, he snapped and snarled, putting himself between Kade and us, trying to tell Ria and Bonsai what to do.
Back off. You won't harm these pups.

I snorted. Yeah, like a one year old could really stop Kade from doing anything. I shook my head then growled lightly at Bruno.
" Bruno, get back before he hurts you. He's their father," I said, hoping he would get the hint and back off. He really was only getting himself into trouble if he continued.

I'm sorry, Ophelia. So, so sorry..

He whined, a pathetic noise that you definitely wouldn't expect from him. My brows pulled together in confusion as I watched him, not really knowing what to say or think. He looked just as pathetic as he sounded, his head and tail low... He wouldn't look at me as he spoke, his muzzle remaining pointed to the ground.

Ophelia

He said my name again and continued to step forward, and in response I took a few steps back. Harley was tucked underneath me and I didn't want him getting close to the pup I knew still loved me. His head suddenly rose, his soft, sorrowful eyes connecting with my cold, unforgiving ones.

Ophelia, I love you.

I swallowed hard, my eyes widened a bit as I turned my face away from his. I didn't know what to think, my mind that had been set on hating him forever suddenly in a frenzy of thoughts and emotions. He was a manipulating liar, convincing enough to get almost anything he wanted. But was he so desperate to get something that he'd say he loved me? That was a big step... I mean, I was sure that I had never even heard Zorai tell my mother that, and they were about as devoted as you could get. Why would he want me to forgive him anyway? There was nothing else he could get from me; I wasn't useful for anything but making pups. Telling me he loved me was completely unbeneficial for him unless he really meant it. But how was I supposed to believe him after all the lies he'd told

" How am I supposed to believe you?" I asked finally, looking back at him. My face was unemotional, not displaying hatred nor love.

Bonsai didn't move either, and I smirked at that. At least two of us were smart.

Right, you want to leave me after I cared for you since you were born to stay with the asshole that left us alone, that you haven't seen once until now?

" Damn straight, bitch," I snickered under my breath, smirking until I saw Kade's reaction. He growled at Bonsai, then kicked his heels up in my face. I snarled when they came dangerously close to touching me, jumping up and taking a step back. I thought about latching onto his paws, but decided against it. I knew he'd probably kill me if I tried it. I glared at him now, my opinions slowly changing. Perhaps I didn't want to go with him. Of course I wanted away from mother, but I didn't want to get smacked around wherever I went.

I'm sorry Ophelia, so so sorry.

What in the hell was wrong with him? I thought he was the big bad-ass that I wanted to model myself after, and he was apologizing? Man had I been wrong about him. He wasn't a big, heartless murderer! He was an overgrown pansy! I growled in distaste as I watched him step closer, repeating her name as he whimpered pathetically. His next statement sealed it for me.

Ophelia, I love you.

Love was for the weaklings who couldn't make it on their own, who need some male to protect them. I surely didn't want it, and if Kade was truly in love with mother than he was no better than she was. I had to admit that it hurt. The brute I'd looked up to the first 6 months of my life was the exact opposite of what I'd hoped he would be. I glanced at Bonsai. He looked sick and just as surprised and displeased as I was. I sighed as I sat down, little growls still rumbling from my chest. I glared as I watched them, not really knowing what else to do.[/color]

[Virus]

I couldn't really say I blamed Ria or Bonsai for wanting to get out of Lightning. I heard multiple puppy snarls at my multiple retorts to their mother's words. Ria seemed the worst, though. Bonsai might belong better in either Lumination or Shadow, though there was no way in hell I was allowing my son to go and fuck with Shadow. No way in hell. I might not've wanted these pups, but they were my spawn and no spawn of mine was going to go join the cause I was going to possibly die for. Ria, on the other hand, was probably pure Bloodshed. At my snarls, they seemed to deflate slightly, shocked and hurt at my reaction. I raised my eyebrows in surprise at them, wondering why the hell they would look up to me, of all people. I was bad, I was big, and though I wouldn't rape anymore, I had stolen their mother's virginity. What was so awe-filling about that? What was so inspiring? Maybe they thought of me as strong... But there were so many other aspects shadowing over my strength. I gave the two pups a confused look, not even sure why they weren't like Harley, probably the best pup out of our litter, it seemed.

Ria, my least favorite, I had to admit, of the litter, was slim, curvy, and what I might've thought sexy before Ophelia had overrun my thoughts. Bonsai was a real good looking brute, obviously taking after myself [isn't it fun to be conceited?]. Harley was lithe and yet pretty muscular, even at this age. Her curves were subtle, though I knew she'd be a wondrous woman one day. I couldn't say the same for Ria, but at least I had one that wasn't going to be a bitch.
I heard Ria behind me snicker some smart-ass comment in response to what Ophelia had snarled at her two disobedient pups. I growled, deep and menacing, slowly rotating my large head to look at my female mini-me behind my legs. "Want to say that louder?" I rumbled, not having any patience for a little smart-ass. I turned the rest of my body around, Ophelia watching me and standing in awe at my last statement earlier for a moment. "Because I can kick your ass from here to freakin' Bloodshed if it comes down to it." I hissed at her, stomping one of my massive black paws down in front of her face. "Speak to your mother or I one more time like that. I dare you."

I turned back to Ophelia, ignoring the she-devil I had created. Carefully, I made my way across the clearing, closing the space between us. She seemed shocked, hurt, and confused. Her face went emotionless after some time, asking me that question I knew would come up. I stopped a few inches from her face, leaning in ever so slowly, touching my nose to hers. "I've never said those three words before, Ophelia. I know my word's not enough to convince you, as I've... said a few things I probably lied about." I winced, looking down for a moment. I looked back up at her again, slowly searching her orange eyes with my own blue irises. "But... if it means anything to you, at all, I swear on my father's grave that I love you with all my heart. After I parted with you that last time, I couldn't get you out of my head. Your name just kept repeating itself," I grinned crookedly, flipping my ears up, eyes brightening with the slight humor. " 'Ophelia, Ophelia, Ophelia...' It was all I could think about for the longest time." My last words were only a whisper, my nose reaching a little farther out to rub the side of my muzzle to hers. We still stood facing each other, the only connection between us my muzzle on hers.

"I... wouldn't blame you if you never wanted to see me again," The words were hard to get out, my throat tightening up. "But if... you can find it within yourself... Will you take me back? Will you forgive me?" My words had sunk back down to a whisper, soft and quiet.

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[badger]

I flicked my ears dismissively as my mother snarled at my disobedience.

Right, you want to leave me after I cared for you since you were born to stay with the asshole that left us alone, that you haven't seen once until now?

"Well, I sure don't want to stay in a pack full of sniveling, flower-smelling, pansies!" I snarled back at her. There was no force on the planet that could make me go with her. She was just as wimpy as all the other Lightning wolves, they were all a bunch of do-goodies.

"Speak to your mother or I one more time like that. I dare you."

I smirked as Kade snapped as Ria, she had it coming to her. I would have added on to her comment, but Kade's reaction changed my mind. He was awesome, I was so proud to be his son, even if my mother was a pitiful excuse for a wolf. As far as I was concerned, she wasn't my mother anymore.

Kade was apologizing and pleading to my mother once more. I tilted my head to one side and watched this sad scene. Pssh. I'd never sink that low, and I'd never ever fall in love. Sure, I'd maybe like a fea a bit, but never love her.
I'd be sure to keep this act of Kade's a secret, for his reputation's sake.

[trinity]

Bruno would continue to growl even after the males warnings. He must of been insane this could easy take him out in a bite or so yet he wanted to protect rude disrespectful pups. Bruno would shake his head as he heard Ophelia talk to him. he would stop growling at this wolf as she sat down stunned at what was unfolding here. this wolf was suppose to be a bad ass but by the way he was acting he was nothing but a coward a lovesick one. So this was what female do to males turn them into lovesick cowards. he would sigh as he watched the male closely growling a little when he got closer to his aunt. He glared at the two pups who were being dis respectful to their mother. Couldn't they see this male didn't care for pups all he seemed to care for is their mother.

"i don't think he likes you Ria and Bonsai" Bruno would smirk at them. He thought it funny in a strange way. Those two hate their mother mother for some reason but they love their sicko father. If they didn't watch it they may not have any one who like them or will take care of them. He would then look back over at Ophelia and the male watching them closely. he wonder if he should alert the other wolves of this intruder. would they come running the question is could they defeat this brute.

[Luna]

Want to say that louder?

My ears flicked back, surprised and unpleased by the loud, menacing snarls that entered them. I glared as he turned and spoke to me, the fascination I'd had with him before melting away each time he spoke to me. I wanted more than anything to bark back what I'd said, showing him that I wasn't afraid of him. Sure, he could kill me if he wanted, but at least I'd die standing up for myself, not getting bossed around by the piece of shit that abandoned us.

Because I can kick your ass from here to freakin' Bloodshed if it comes down to it.

My first natural reaction was fear. He scared the shit out of me, his massive body towering over mine, his pearly daggers bared in my face. Deep down I knew that I wanted to tremble in fear and submit like any reasonable wolf would. That wasn't me though; it wasn't who I was. I'd chosen my path, and if I was to succeed at it I couldn't take orders from anyone, not even my father. I flinched back at first, but hid my natural fear by puffing myself up and snapping my jaws at the paw that had landed an inch away from my nose. I didn't make contact, although I would've liked to.

Speak to your mother or I one more time like that. I dare you.

" Fuck you," I snapped, standing tall as I glared at his backside now. He'd turned around, but I knew he'd heard me. Any minute now he'd turn around and smack the hell out of me. Oh yeah, I knew I was getting hit for that one. I was expecting it though, and tensed up the best way I could to accept it. I knew that I was going to end up getting whooped alot in the future, but it would only make me stronger.

I've never said those three words before, Ophelia. I know my word's not enough to convince...

I rolled my eyes and tuned out the rest of his pathetic apologies. I didn't want to listen to his sniveling, his begging. I glanced at Bonsai, who was still staring up at Kade with pride. He was proud to be his son, and it made me sick. Before, when all I had to go on was what mother had said about him I was proud to be his daughter, but now I wasn't. He was big and burly, strong and he didn't take anyone's shit, but deep down he was no better than Mom. The rapist, the murderer that I had wanted to become, was just a love-sick puppy. He wasn't even fit to be in Bloodshed, from what I'd heard my grand-mother say about their members. Their leader Kane had killed more wolves than she could count and he didn't give a shit... then the brute that had killed my uncle... Now that was a killer. You could see the terror in her eyes each time she talked about him. That was the kind of wolf I wanted to meet... or actually, do a lot more than just meet...
But really, all Kade had done was rape mother, and now he was begging for her love!

i don't think he likes you Ria and Bonsai.

I rolled my eyes again as I glanced at Bruno.
" Why don't you shut the hell up?"

After dealing with the bitch of daughter we'd created, he turned back to me. His face regained the sad softness it had been holding as he slowly inched closer. He moved carefully, as if expecting me to lash out. I should've, I knew it, but I couldn't. I cared about him, I couldn't deny it. He wasn't a match for the love I had for Xenio, but I did care about him. He stopped inches away from me, and I flinched back a bit when he moved even closer. I stopped, holding my breath as I let his nose touch mine. I didn't trust him, and it was nerve-racking to be that close.

I've never said those three words before, Ophelia. I know my word's not enough to convince you, as I've... said a few things I probably lied about.

He winced, his eyes casting downward. I exhaled slowly, almost in a sigh as I stared at his forehead. I noticed his optics move up again, and looked back down to lock our gazes. I watched the miniscule movements in his orbs as they looked from one side of my eyes to the other as if searching for something.

But... if it means anything to you, at all, I swear on my father's grave that I love you with all my heart. After I parted with you that last time, I couldn't get you out of my head. Your name just kept repeating itself.

I laughed softly, a smile widening my muzzle as I glanced down.

Ophelia, Ophelia, Ophelia, It was all I could think about for the longest time.

The humorous moment ended as his words softened into a whisper. He moved slightly, his cold nose moving forward and just barely rubbing back and forth against the side of my muzzle. I looked up, my eyes searching his now.

I... wouldn't blame you if you never wanted to see me again.

He could barely say it, I could tell. His words were strained, as if he got that tightening feeling you get in your chest whenever you're about to cry; trying to say something that hurts.

But if... you can find it within yourself... Will you take me back? Will you forgive me?

Silence grew between us then. I could hear the pups, or Bruno I think, mumbling behind him, but I paid it no mind. I focused on his face, his eyes. My stare bore through them as if sifting through his mind, looking for any hint of a lie. I wanted to see something that would push me away, make me snap at him and give him what he deserved... But I saw nothing of the kind, and I smiled.

I closed my eyes and pushed my self forward, pressing my muzzle into the soft fur of his neck, just below his ears.
" I love you too."[/color]

[Virus]

She stood there and stood there as I apologized and explained myself, the only movement from her was a sigh at one point and her eyes searching mine as I searched hers. The pups behind me were getting on my very last nerve, and I really just wanted to kill Ria right then and there to save myself the trouble of raising her later. I knew it would come eventually, her and Bonsai leaving Lightning to join Bloodshed. It was obvious the hatred for Ophelia and Lightning, and I could understand the half of that. I don't think I could stand Lightning either, but why would they hate Ophelia? She was the one that raised them, not me. She was the one that loved them. Hell, maybe I could tolerate Bonsai, but I didn't love any of them. Harley hadn't spoken to me yet, only glaring at me from beneath her mother's legs, showing which side she was obviously on. I didn't blame her.

I love you, too.

My heart swelled, and Ophelia pushed herself under my neck, burying her face in my fur. I smiled, making a sort of purring sound and turning my body so my head draped over her neck. My tongue flicked in and out, kissing her face, my tail wagging back and forth viciously, still low to the ground. I wasn't actually supposed to be here, and I figured, being with the alpha's daughter kind of meant I should be a bit submissive. Not to mention I had been apologizing in the first place.
I inched my nose closer to her ear, still running my nose through her fur. "I realized there was no one else I would rather want to be with..." I murmured, rubbing my head on the side of her neck, still draped over her torso. I figured it would be good for the kids to see love in it's best form, and that no wolf could ever really avoid the concept of love. Maybe there were some wolves who never really found their match, but even the hardest wolves, even the bloodiest killers could find love. Look at Kane, look at my father. In fact, look at Tempest, my uncle. That guy? Probably the most screwed up wolf [besides Cesaru] that I knew. He had found love earlier in life, only to have it taken away too soon after.

Fuck you.

I heard Ria say, and I growled in annoyance. I wasn't sure what exactly to do; She was being a bitch, like I supposed she always would, but would Ophelia agree with my terms of discipline? My lifestyle was so much different than hers... Back at home, I wouldn't even hesitate to shake her by the neck between my jaws or step on her little body, but in Lightning, I supposed that they scolded their kids instead of physically harming them. Quite frankly, I figured that what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Unsure of what to do with her, I turned my rump in her direction, ignoring her completely and the irritating thought of leaving her unpunished and letting my threat hang idle itching at my core.
"Ria, are you really that stupid?" I heard Harley snort at Ria, and I gave her a nod. Yes, Ria was stupid. I ducked my head a little, taking it off of Ophelia's neck, the two of us standing side by side. I looked at Harley, who had moved out from under Ophelia when she had gone to me, now sitting behind Bruno and Bonsai, leaning against a tree. She glared at me, but I tried my best to get her to come over to me. "I won't..." I was going to say 'hurt you', but I guess that might be considered a lie in some cases. If Ria was within my reach, she would've had her neck snapped.
"Uh..." I hesitated, not sure how to end my sentance. I looked at Bonsai as well, lowering to my stomach to see if they would come over on their own.

I smirked as I saw my dad nod to me, confirming the fact that he found Ria stupid. If she was going to mouth off to a Bloodshed wolf and expected him not to crack her skull, she really had another thing coming. I didn't agree with my mother's forgiveness of him, but he seemed to truly mean what he said. He hadn't raped anyone else, it seemed, since our mother, so at least he hadn't cheated. Well, as far as I knew.
But wanting me to come over and be his daughter? No way in hell. I remained where I was, not moving, not responding.

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[badger]

I sat and watched as my parents, no, my dad and his fea, cuddled up and kissed each other. It was better than them tearing each other to pieces.(although, that would have been pretty cool to watch)
I heard Ria snap once again at Kade, she really was an idiot. Even I was ready to snap her in half. I rolled my eyes at her.
I zoned out as an interesting butterfly fluttered a little bit away. I watched it float up and down, in a random and quick pattern, and it flew out of view.

"I won't... uh..."

Was he staying with us? My tail wagged in anticipation. Kade lowered himself to my level, well as low as he could, and a padded over to him. My tail wagged low to the ground and my head was down as I approached him. I looked up at him with my purple eyes. He was once again my role model, although I would never do an act like this. At least I hoped not.
Either way, he was still a huge wolf, and that was something to look up to. (quite literally.) He could easily snap me in half in one bite, but I didn't feel scared that he would. If he was going to bite anyone, it was going to be Ria, and I couldn't say she wouldn't deserve it.
"Hi, Kade," I said confidently.

[Luna]

I wanted patiently for an onslaught of scoldings and beatings, but they never came. I rose a brow, hearing a growl from Kade but nothing more. I was surprised and pleased. I knew mother would never hit me for anything... had he known this as well and been afraid to strike me? Beating a child certainly wouldn't look good on him, trying to regain her trust and love. Did that mean that I could talk shit and get away with it? It didn't make a difference in what I would do; I didn't care if they hit me or not, I wasn't going to take anything from them. I'd be just as arrogant and bitchy whether I was disciplined or not.

But it did inflate my pride, and I was probably cockier than ever. I smirked, my tail flicking in pleasure behind me as I strode back to my original spot. I sat down, leaning gently against the trunk of a tree. I glanced at Harley when she spoke, my arrogant ' I'm sooo much better than you' smirk gleaming brightly. I looked away rather than retorting; she wasn't worth the time or energy. I saw Bonsai roll his eyes as I looked away from Harley, and only laughed. Did they really think I cared what they thought about me?

I realized there was no one else I would rather want to be with...

I was a sucker for love. I knew I fell so easily that it was pathetic, and this was probably one of those cases. He'd treated me like shit but I knew I was forgiving him. He seemed to explode with joy, hugging me, showering me in kisses, and I knew I couldn't hate him anymore. I couldn't decide whether it was best to accept him or turn him away, but it didn't really matter. I was enjoying his love, accepting his body pressed against mine, and craved the connection when he moved away.

" I'm glad you did," I whispered back as he moved away, turning to look at Harley as she scurried away from us. She sat pressed against a tree, face hard in a glare. She still hated him, and being the only decent one of our pups, I was sure she always would. Unlike me, she was a normal wolf, and I didn't see her forgiving him for what he'd done anytime soon.

I won't... um...

He couldn't get out whatever he was trying to say, and I sighed. That wasn't going to help her like him any. He laid on his stomach and Bonsai eagerly joined him. I sighed at that. It seemed as though Bonsai hated me even more than Sexaria did, and that hurt. I gave them all three all I could since they were born, and all but one of them wanted to leave. I must have really sucked at being a mother.
Harley and Sexaria still refused to come closer, and I stepped slowly toward Harley. I wasn't going to try to move Sexaria, I knew she wouldn't listen anyway. I stopped next to her, leaning down and touching my nose to the side of her face.

" I know you're never going to trust him, and I don't expect you to," I whispered, assuring only she could hear as I licked her muzzle. " But he seems for real this time, doesn't he?" I softly nudged her before lifting my head. " Why not give him a chance?"[/color]

[trinity]

Bruno would wag his tail some tired of growling this wolf wasn't going to do anything. he was a love sick puppy. Chasing after his aunt. Bruno looked over at Harley smiling. He could tell Harley didn't trust the male. she remained setting not to far from where Bruno was setting. Bruno would shake his head when he saw the two kiss and say those three words 'I Love You." Bruno would watch as his aunt came over to harley trying to get her to go over by her father.

"You know you shouldn't make her go over there. If need be I bet my mom would watch her until she got use to the ideal of your mate." Bruno said he didn't want to see her forced into forgiving her father. He knew how it felt to dislike ones father. Bruno wonder if he should of said what he said. Did it make him look like an idiot or what. he would let out a sigh. "sorry If I offended you or something I guess i was thinking out loud. He would smile some wagging his tail. Bruno was still surprised that Ria wasn't scolded for her actions he knew if he said that to his mother or father he would be in some deep trouble.

[Virus]

A small smile lit up my face as Bonsai came over to me, tail tucked low but eyes bright with curiosity. His eyes were purple, and I turned my head slightly in curiosity. Purple eyes? I'd never really seen a wolf with purple eyes. Where'd he get them from, anyways? Ophelia had orange eyes, and I had blue. Now that I thought about it, though, Anakaros, my second cousin or something, had purple eyes, and we were both descendants of Andros and the older Anakaros. My grandparents, his great-grandparents. Perhaps one of them had purple irises, and that's how Bonsai had gotten them.
" 'Dad's just fine, Bonsai." I laughed to myself, as he came up and called me by my real name. Last I had checked, kids were supposed to call their parents 'mom' and 'dad'. Then again, I wasn't really a dad to these guys, now was I?

I looked over at Ophelia, who was murmuring to Harley and nudging her slightly. My ears flicked back, eyes watching her, hoping she'd give me a second chance. I wasn't expecting it, I would actually be surprised if she did, but it kind of hurt knowing she hated me. The pain in my chest shocked me, as I wasn't aware I actually cared about the pups. Bonsai I could tell was probably going to be my favorite, and I was caring for him already. But Harley and Ria? I wasn't sure about Harley, and I was ready to just end Ria.
I looked back down at my son, batting softly at his frame with my paw in an effort to get him to play. I had gotten the steel claws everyone in my family raved about, and I had to make an effort to keep them retracted. Wolves' claws don't normally retract, so I bent my paw to kind of hit him with the top of my foot.

"Ophelia?" I said, my low baritone voice rumbling over towards her. "Do you want me to take Ria and Bonsai back to Bloodshed with me?" I think it would be better just to do it now than when they were older. It would give them more of a chance at the true Bloodshed lifestyle, and they'd adapt quicker when they were young. I frowned as I thought about going back to Bloodshed, though, leaving behind Ophelia.

Mother came by and started nudging me, but I just pushed my rump firmer to the ground, not wanting to move. "Not yet, mama..." I whispered back to her, eyeing Kade as he looked at me. It would take me a good while to forgive him for what he did to us, but it was too soon. Way too soon. Bonsai seemed to have gotten over the past, and was already playing with him. It disgusted me, and no matter how much my mother said he had 'changed', he was a Bloodshed, and nothing was going to change that.

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